It used to bother me that the closer I drew to God in my walk with Him,
the more sinful I felt. Then a phenomenon I observed in my room enlightened me.
A tiny gap in the curtain covering my window threw a ray of light into the
room. As I looked, I saw particles of dirt drifting in the beam. Without the
ray of light, the room seemed clean, but the light revealed the dirty particles.
What I observed shed light on my spiritual life. The closer I approach
the Lord of light, the clearer I see myself. When the light of Christ shines in
the darkness of our lives, it exposes our sin—not to discourage us, but to
humble us to trust in Him. We can’t depend on our own righteousness, since we
are sinners and fall short of God’s standards (Rom. 3:23). When we are proud,
the light reveals our heart and we cry as Isaiah did, “Woe to me! . . . For I
am a man of unclean lips, . . . and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord
Almighty” (Isa. 6:5 niv).
God is absolutely perfect in every way. Approaching Him calls for
humility and childlike trust, not self-importance and pride. For it is by grace
that He draws us to Himself. It is good for us that we feel unworthy as we draw
closer to God, for it humbles us to rely on Him alone.